dream

i had a dream, a bad one. it was my mother and i, heading to airport. when we arrived, i checked in my ticket. and everything went pretty much as wanted.

wait.

someone please explain what the fuck has just happened to my download ! shit almost finished! XPXPXPXP pissed

to be continued – due to bad mood.

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and yeah, i am continuing writing cuz i just had the second one. actually they were not terrible at all. no ghost, no bloody accident, but what made them worth freaking out is that they were too real, which took me a very long time to eventually realise that those were fake reality. darn it. i was scared, shivering in cold, and i am happy that they were just mainan syaiton.

someone was trying to steel my clothes, my stuffs and everything. yeah they both had similar pattern of fooling me. i was crying (in heart) like a baby, cuz i tot it was really happening to me. usually when i have a dream, menggosok2 kaki will do the trick to distinguish from fake to real. but for thse two, i didnt do what it takes to finish them. it seemed God intentionally wanted me to learn. and yup, lesson learned. im not sure the exact point of the whole story, it might be that i gotta stop chasing dunia stuffs and start tracing back Allah. while i may have completely gone astray from the truth, i made up the reason and tried to relate what i was recently doing in da last two or three days. i was speechless, and in fact i still am; trying to put everything in more sensible form. to be  honest i am not religious and neither do i wanna argue upon that. but deep down i somehow feel like im ending my last chapter of the life as a religious one, a sheik maybe lol. but rite now i guess it’s not the rite time to change my everything, although i am positive that the only and blessed path is Allah’s way. yet the things that still keep me on living the correct path simply the strong belief i have in my heart; i will be one someday. i have always loved to learn my religion, and practise what i have gained as much as i can, even though nothing are impressive and drastic. i dont expect ppl to view me that way though, and i suspect, yes they dont really do that lol. well, i was born not to impress ppl i must say, i praise myself for my own achievements and thats it. i dont see why must i pay for attention when i know i would eventually fail. i never be the favorite of all kind, and im pretty cool with it.

this makes me sad. everytime it pops up in mind.

Low

yay ! ( wow this is a very fancy spelling for yes nowadays. very lively and full of life. sorry i was trying to get fancy but i literally mean the normal yes, nothing exciting about this entry that you should know this isnt a very nice post to read, ever lol)

i actually am not kind of guy who complains much about surrounding. i must admit sumtime i get this funny little emotions that quite a few time i posted stupid things on facebook in the past. i mean i might have used f-word in my status or whatsoever to show how bad i was, how hard had i gone through, but really, those were bullshits. i am actually quite a nice guy who is looking for betterment in every single day. i am like a normal regular joe, i love to be loved, and likewise i love people around me. Phew! done with GVOK 101. hopefully i managed to convince you that i am not really into complaining stuffs, tapi kalau kadang-kadang tu kira halal la kan lol

but..

recently i watched 2 malay movies named Hantu Mak Limah Balik Rumah (abbr HMLBR)  and Ngangkong. both were from different channels. HMLBR i watched in cinema and Ngangkung i downloaded it from pirated source (yeah piracy is nasty, but ‘for free’ is irresistible, sorry i forget to be a nice guy when it comes to this tehehe). To be honest, i am not a big fan of malay movies, but bombarding positive reviews they got and wide coverage publicity about these movies has shifted my principle slightly . and to be save, emotionally, i didnt expect much when i was watching these two movies, like what i always set in mind, dealing with malay products. At this point i must reveal that there is no twist from my previous statement or new perspective built about malay movies, since waiting the movies to reach the last second was really a nightmare to me. again, after only-God-knows how many time, i felt disappointed and   i cursed myself for falling into this trap again. there were nothing to proud of from HMLBR and Nangkong except lawak bodo yg sangat typical dan spastic yg selalu ditinggimartabatkan oleh penggiat2 seni tanah air. the storyline was not really dynamic, the jokes were cheap, except a few yg boleh dikira agak epic success, and has no diversity. bosan-bosan-bosan. i cant believe i even paid for the seat, and waited macam orang gila to finish downloading. bukan nak kutuk, tapi hakikat tetap hakikat. mungking agak kasar aku nak kutuk product melayu, sebab aku sendiri pun melayu, makan belacan. tapi let’s put it this way; aku as a customer. sure aku melenting. (except download cerita pirate tu beside the point la hehe). part paling sadis bila ramai plak orang melayu duk overrating dua movies ney, sorry lor adik abang ibu2 bapak2, aku rasa lawak derang (pengarah filem) tak da stendet langsung, cerita takdak value yg betul2 tersemat. bukan orang awam jer yg memuji, kengkawan aku yg dok overseas pun layan. haram jadah betoi. tapi aku tak tekejut langsung  kat certain mmber2 aku yg enjoy filem ney  because from experience, they are those people who have really bad taste. lantak lar korang !!

Maybe it is just me who felt that way. But if we look the scenario as a big picture, seriously malay movie industry has no future. Please be informed i am speaking out as concerned customer, maka it is quite personal and agak kasar lol. dont get your ass heated up, okay. hidup ini masih indah. and back to my bad review bout industri perfileman negara, my concern (or keprihatinan lol) has grown beyond anything when i realized that the malays’ mentality are still rooting at the same old point. Tengok lar kat wayang2 around jitra ni, cerita melayu ni berkisar pada 3 tema ja; lawak, hantu, cinta. kita x payah pergi jauh kat amerika, tengok korea sudah la, or thailand maybe, even indonesia. walaupun kengkadang derang sendiri tak ley lari dari stereotype masing-masing (korea=cinta, thai= bunuh, indo=kurafat), but still masih ada gak film derang yg really2 impressive. kalau tak percaya tengok lar cerita madeo aka mother (korea) sebagai panduan. A+ bhai ! aku takda lar cakap film malaysia ni zero, it’s just that kalu rasa2 tak menyubang kepada peningkatan metaliti melayu ke tahap yg lebey tinggi, x yah wat filem lar. kesian kat budak-budak ja, nak berak pun suruh nenek teman pi tandas, bila neneknya nak ke tandas, cucunya plak teman. punya la hidup ney dah sinonim ngan banyangan2 hantu, sungguh sadis ! dunia dah maju, tapi asal gak derang nak wat cerita hantu ?! bosan doe..

harapan aku, agar filem2 melayu berjaya mencuri hati aku balik, and never let it go, again lol. bajet