YAY!
it’s holiday *firework*.. and i am terribly sorry for the long gone disappearance ! actually i might just delete that apology, cuz it just doesnt make sense. im not like famous blogger of sumthing.. haha not funny
well.. ummm idk, i guess i am just so lonely lately that i think i need some space to write down umm a thing. i had something in mind.. that is bothering me, but cant find a correct way to deliver it. not sure if its actually worth sharing, or just keep it personally.
these days, ive been keeping of thinking about my life. like.. what kind of man would i be in the next decade. rite now, a person that i wanted myself to be has not turned up yet, so i feel a little uncomfortable bout it. back in year when i was in high school, i had been imagining myself as a person who would do anything to be on top in academic. i studied hard for my public exam, but my results didnt meet my expectation (my only aim was a straight A’s). i was almost there though, but i could not just rewind the time like a cassette to mend thing. it just dont happen, and if it did, i would imagine it to be even worse. and now that im in the third year, studying chemistry. at this point, what can i say is i am way way too “much” tarnishing my personal reputation. the attitude to embrace it is just bad, and find myself to suffer from lacking of discipline. and i feel like i am fading away in laziness that i commit. i dont feel cool anymore, i need to step up and start my game. there is devil dwelling inside my brain, and im on mission of ending him, darn you laziness. you know what?? i am not usually like this !!!!! <like what??!!>
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